Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label me. Show all posts

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Thinking Out Loud - It's a Small World After All?

Bakit mo pa ako kailangan, sa dinami dami ng kaibigan mo?

Let me rant for a little here, would you?

I'm not exactly the person to have a large social circle. I have a few close friends from the college, then friends from elementary and HS (whom I get to hang out maybe three, four times a year), and then from my organization (UP Tangway), and then, that's that.

Having a smaller social circle than others, I tend to gravitate and give importance to them much more than they would to me. I don't really complain about that, since I still feel that I am a significant part of their lives, it's just that they have a bigger social circle. No biggie.

Pictured: NOT me.

What bothers me to no end are those persons that just don't seem to care for you AT ALL, even after caring for them. It is just so frustrating, to then, see them care for others, for them to appreciate other people. It's like they suddenly turn off their "care" button when they look at you. And I'm NOT talking about romance or love life here. I am talking about friends! It's like they NEVER enjoy their time with you, but they do with other people. It feels like you can explode in rage and just accept sadness at the same time.


And the worst part of it, it seems like they enjoy the company of those people that does NOT even really care for them sincerely. I know one shouldn't care for someone just to be cared for, but IT.JUST.SUCKS. It just does. That's the truth. You don't want to accept me caring for you, don't want to appreciate me, think of me as boring, then fine. I can't do anything any more. I don't know if I am making any sense at all, but eh, I guess you have such big world that I am as significant as an ant to you. Too bad, you are one of the persons that I truly cared for. But you just don't care.

Y U NO APPRECIATE ME???!?

I guess the best course of action is just to care less, besides, they do say that you'll only see the value of something once it is lost, right?




Friday, January 20, 2012

From the Vault: AnĂ¡lisis perfecto. Es verdad. tan muy verdad

(ed note: This one goes way way back from May 8, 2004)


got this from my kuyas and ates sa uptangway. hehe.. get yours too at http://www.handwritingwizard.com, then post them here! haha..

welcome kelvin rae rodriguez,  here is your handwriting analysis.




kelvin rae is moderately outgoing. his emotions are stirred by sympathy and heartrendering stories. in fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. he has the ability to put himself into the otherperson's shoes. (wow..sakto ito..)
kelvin rae will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. he has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. this is because he is in between. psychology calls kelvin rae an ambivert.(is that even a real word? haha) he understands the needs of both types. although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." he doesn't sway too far one way or the other. (korak...tama tama.)
when convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. he puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. kelvin rae is an expressive person. he outwardly shows his emotions. he may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.(true..d b? haha)
kelvin rae is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. he weighs both sides of an issuesits on the fence, and then will decide when he finally has to.(parang kilala lang ako nung gumawa ah!) he basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.


people that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially.(so far, ala pang mali ang analysis.) according to the data input, kelvin rae doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
 

kelvin rae will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. he will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. so, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it! (tama! haha.. )





kelvin rae is a cumulative and procedural thinker. he likes to have all the facts before making a decision. he thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. his thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. like that brick wall, kelvin rae learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. once he has learned new material, and understood it, he won't forget. (ito napakatotoo. as in, ganyan na gnyan..)
kelvin rae is a methodical thinker, therefore he is able to build things and come up with new ideas. in an argument, he often loses to rapid thinking people because he is thinking thirty minutes later about what he should have said (so true..haha..kaya nga daw madali ako madistract ng aking mga pagkakamali..oh..talent's night..haha..). these people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate. (ibg sbhin. ung nakaktalo sa akin, booksmarts, but i can defeat them in a "rapid fire verbal debate, ryt? haha..tamang tama! parlia nga ako eh d b..)
he may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once he gets it, he can handle repetition. some people hate jobs with too much repetition, he can handle it better than most.





kelvin rae is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. this is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. he needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning.(tama!) notice that i said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. kelvin rae basically feels good about himself. he has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. he feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. however, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". he has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals.(tama pa din..lalo na ung "not take great risks" that's me! a good esteem is one key to a happy life. although there is room for improvement in the confidence category, his self-perception is better than average. (tama ito..kahit akala nyo wala akong self esteem, di lang xa super taas.)



kelvin rae has a temper. he uses this as a defense mechanism when he doesn't understand how to handle a situation. temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around him. (not..so good, but true.)



something is incomplete in kelvin rae's life. he feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. this is very likely to relate to kelvin rae's sexual needs. (anung sexual needs???!?!?! haha..pero tama..i do feel those..frustration, non fulfillment..pero d naman kcng lala 2lad ng dati.)
 



for a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. if the inputted data was correct kelvin rae has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. kelvin rae fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. if this is true, then kelvin rae has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. the right side of the page represents the future and kelvin rae seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. kelvin rae seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. it would be best to leave the past behind and move on. stop crowding that left margin. (katulad ng sbi ko, gnun na nga ako, hrap makalimot sa mga ibang pangyayari.. 2lad nung mga pagbagsak ko sa math, mga pagkakamali ko sa app process sa tangway, ung pagkaholdap sa akin..hehe..pero itong part na yung pina malayo sa katotohanan..i actually am moving on relatively good. haha..)


very nice..haha..i didn't expect na tatama xa ng gnung kataas ang accuracy!  try it sometimes guys, masaya! hehe..and oh yeah, mag iwan kayo ng comment ha! okie? salamat!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

On Deck: Jersey Number

Bakit 38?


    Number 38 ang jersey number ko, yung 50 at 6 naman ay Daddy at kay Kuya, respectively. I don't know why my dad chose 50, and I know Kuya chose 6 because anniv nila ni ate ang 6. So ulit, sa akin, bakit 38?

    50 and 6 are what I would call, Basketball numbers. Yun bang magandang tingnan sa jersey. For instance, ano mas magandang tingnan sa likod ng jersey, number 7 o 61? Usually yung mga mababang number (1-10, and to a lesser extent, 11-20) ay magagandang basketball numbers. Then yung karamihan ng rounded numbers (25, 50..etc.). Then meron din dyan yung mga pinasikat ng mga sikat na basketball players (23, 27, 33 among others). But 38? It doesn't necessarily fall under any of those conditions.

   Part of my reason is that I want something unique. 38 is an unusual number. I feel like it has some potential to be a somewhat catchy number. And really, how many people wear 38 as their number? Papansin lang din kahit papaano.

   Another reason is that it is inspired by one of my favorite players, a reason also by a lot of other players, which is why you would see a lot of 23s, 32s, 33s, 24s, and 1s among the jerseys. Mine? The player that I was talking about is San Miguel Beermen / Petron Blaze Booster Forward, Arwind Santos.


His jersey number is 29. Mine is 38. I really didn't want to use his 29, so, take one from 9 and place it on 2, and voila, 38!

And for what it is worth, I tried avoiding picking a number that would be associated with an, let's just say, inspiration. Just to avoid hating the number in case things don't go the right way, and I really wanted to have a number that I would continue to use for a long time. But hey, faith has a way of making things work, and I did say I just tried avoiding it, right? ;)

That's the story of my number, so you, what would your jersey number be?