Let me rant for a little here, would you?
I'm not exactly the person to have a large social circle. I have a few close friends from the college, then friends from elementary and HS (whom I get to hang out maybe three, four times a year), and then from my organization (UP Tangway), and then, that's that.
Having a smaller social circle than others, I tend to gravitate and give importance to them much more than they would to me. I don't really complain about that, since I still feel that I am a significant part of their lives, it's just that they have a bigger social circle. No biggie.
Pictured: NOT me.
What bothers me to no end are those persons that just don't seem to care for you AT ALL, even after caring for them. It is just so frustrating, to then, see them care for others, for them to appreciate other people. It's like they suddenly turn off their "care" button when they look at you. And I'm NOT talking about romance or love life here. I am talking about friends! It's like they NEVER enjoy their time with you, but they do with other people. It feels like you can explode in rage and just accept sadness at the same time.
And the worst part of it, it seems like they enjoy the company of those people that does NOT even really care for them sincerely. I know one shouldn't care for someone just to be cared for, but IT.JUST.SUCKS. It just does. That's the truth. You don't want to accept me caring for you, don't want to appreciate me, think of me as boring, then fine. I can't do anything any more. I don't know if I am making any sense at all, but eh, I guess you have such big world that I am as significant as an ant to you. Too bad, you are one of the persons that I truly cared for. But you just don't care.
Y U NO APPRECIATE ME???!?
I guess the best course of action is just to care less, besides, they do say that you'll only see the value of something once it is lost, right?
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